He reaches over for a vine above his head thinking it’s plastic and laughs in spite of himself when he realizes it’s not. I crane my neck to watch this. He is 6 inches taller than me and I am hyper aware of this— Of how easily he reached over for the vine; of how much longer his shadow extends compared to mine; of how there is only a little room between the top of his head to the top of most door frames. I move 6 more inches away from him so I can see him more clearly. But his big steps are always 6 or more ahead of mine so that he is now walking in front of me and I have to catch up to fill the gap. I stay 6 steps behind.
Every sigh, every little chuckle, and every micro movements is like waves to an otherwise calm sea. Ruffles to a silk skirt and creases to a linen shirt. There is no way of hiding the fact that it affects the every corner of your mind as you sit 6 inches away from him in the space this car allows. I sit with my hands on my lap and it becomes a little uncomfortable after 6 minutes. He tells me a story of the time he and his friend ended up the next town over after 6-hours of drinking. I don’t move at all and try to focus on anything but the 6-inch space between us. I shuffle to a more comfortable position, 6 breaths away from the hand on his gear shift.
The trip home was only 15 minutes; I savor all 15 and hope there would be more. But my street comes up and this would end, just 60 meters left. He parks in front of my building and adds 6 minutes more to the 15. My hearts dances a bit. He goes on telling me another story from his youth; I am more than a willing listener. His voice was only 6 decibels short of perfect and jolts 6 levels of reverb to my every heartbeat. Then I cut the conversation short despite protests of the heart. He had to travel 8.5 kilometers more to go home and it was late. I hug him goodbye, and watch him drive away. I take 8 and a half steps to the front door and leave behind feelings 8.5 kilometers long.